For X

There i sat, looking at the young, not envying much
what they lived through, suddenly, the room darkened:
everything faded to black, but a light, i looked up
she stood there, all by herself it seemed, just existing,
so innocent (or not), young clean skin, pretty face,
the most incredible beautiful face ive ever seen, almost
hurts me to think of how pretty her face is.
I wanted to dissapear with her, into my fantasy,
where i could give her the moon and all the stars to watch
nothing would ever compare to her beauty.
Im ready to give her the world, and everything else for
a single moment in her presense, a touch, feel her skin,
her soft clean white young skin...
No, as i loathe myself for this feeling, for its something
that i can never have.. No way in heaven or hell would she
ever think a thought with me in it, not even hate me.
Shes wonderful, i love her, i loved her from the first
time i saw her..
I love her, with all of my heart, so much it hurts..
I loved her from the day i first saw her, i cry inside,
for not being able to be with her, its all i want!
I love you, forever, X